It sucks trying to be perfect

Sometimes we just have to cry for ourselves. Ya know - like throwing a two year old tantrum. Today was one of them. Sometimes it just feels as nothing can go right, and I want to stab everyones eyes out with my favorite pen.

I feel like I try hard to remain positive, and only think of the bright side - but dammit - today I didn't want to.

It all started when I left my tooth at home. Yep, my tooth. Remember I had one pulled, and have a "flapper" until my gums heal. I was on my cell phone at home, got distracted, and walked out the door, still on the phone. (I talk better without it in) - got to Maceys and had to turn around, because I sure as hell ain't going t work with out my tooth!

Then...

Some old, and I mean OLD guy came in today looking for an apartment for his granddaughter...then sat across from my desk for the next hour telling me how I should give her a better rental rate because she is a 22yr old single mother with a 2 yr old, and a retired Marine. Ya - do the math, figure out that retirement. AND - that he is the richest man in Cache Valley, but this economy is gonna flop in two years, and he appreciates me working full time so he can collect his Social Security check. I finally had enough, and asked him to leave....after another 30 min, and me turning my back to him, he got the idea and left.

THEN...social services wants me to give them tenant info on a family that had to have a child removed from the home yesterday. BUT... they don't speak the language they do, and can't understand how to communicate with them. Can you say "warrant?" Duh people! I can't just give out info!

When I thought it was better, I had to come home - but to protect my family and my marriage, I will not give you the details. I will simply state that everyone is in bed but me, tucked in happily, and asleep, and me - well. I am cleaning, doing laundry, and typing out my frustration. It's one of those situations where I feel like the littlest thing has made me just about loose it.

I have anxiety if things are on the counter, in the sink, or in the washer when I go to bed. WHY??? They will be there tomorrow! And another thing. We have Iron in our water - lots of iron. It makes things turn different colors. It makes things smell. It gives me anxiety. If you would like to make a donation to my filtration system, I can set up a pay pal account. My water softener can only do so much. I put a bag of water softener pellets in that sucker every month.

Dear Santa,

Please bring me an iron filtration system. I promise I don't want anything else.

P.S. Thanks for the early present of my Electrolux washer.

Love,

Margaret

P.P.S. I think I will sleep on the couch tonight - because my back hurts, and the couch makes it feel better, and I don't want to accidentally suffocate you in your sleep

Thank you

Love, Margaret

My back does hurt - I think I'll take a pain pill, watch my DVR of Glee, and fall asleep on the couch.

Tomorrow is the 19th. 3 years and 10 months. When I took Dad dinner tonight I just wanted to see you. I miss you! You always made me feel better. You made stupid things seem just that...stupid! There are things in this world so much more important than the dishes and the laundry. I just need you to remind me of that sometimes..... I think you just did .....

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thank you,

Pay It Forward

We have been inspired so much the last few months reading the trials of the sweet Sullenger family. There sweet child was taken too soon, and the inspiring part is how graceful her amazing parents are moving forward.

They are calling out for help now, and there is something we can do! They are taking this horrible tragedy an turning it into something good. Read about their inspiring story here:

http://patrickandashley.blogspot.com/

They are taking donations of money or goods to make baskets for parents who go through the same horrible situations, and have to leave their homes unprepared in times of uncertainty. Each basket will hold items of comfort and things that may be overlooked. The baskets will be delivered to Primary Children's Hospital in December, their goal is 100 complete baskets, one in each room.

Joslynn has decided that this is a great Personal Progress Project, and will be seeking the help from our ward and others. Joslynn and I will deliver the items personally to Rexburg in December. I know that they are concerned about food items right now. If any of you are interested in donating items, please contact me. If you want to donate money there is a donation button on the blog listed above.

Here is more information on the project:

http://presleespresent.blogspot.com/

Here is a list of the supplies that will go in each basket:

1 Box of Granola Bars

2 Trail Mix (Personal Size)

2 Goldfish (Personal Size)

6 Fruit Leather (At Costco you can get a box with 48 individual leathers for under $10)

Breathmints/Gum

Small Eye Drops (Visine)

3 Pens & Journal

Fleece Blaket for the parents (47" x 57" OR 42" x 52"- Try and go for the bigger one :)

2 Pairs of Socks (preferably with grips on the bottom)

2 Toothbrushes

Toothpaste

Chapstick

Small lotion (non-scented if possible)

Playing Cards

Disposable Camera

This is an amazing thing to be a part of. Please help us help the Sullengers and the families at PCMC. We will gladly come and pick up any items you can donate - even if it is ONE BOX of Granola bars! ANYTHING ALWAYS HELPS.

THANK YOU!

Cant touch this...

I took this picture a few weeks ago while waiting to get Ashton and Jaysons tonsils out. It's one of those pictures that makes me giggle.
My little man is 6 TODAY!
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I was gonna be all funny - but now I'm crying!
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He's my baby, and he's growing up.
No more babies
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He is the sunshine in my day

He is a ladies man
He's already picked a woman, and no one better hurt his Rylee!
He's always got his 19 yr old girlfriend for a backup
He gives sweet sugar kisses
He'll try anything once
He loves to snuggle
His favorite color is Orange (because his Dad wears it everyday)
He shot the house with his BB Gun last week under dad's supervision
He wants a turtle for his birthday
His bestest friend is Max
He LOVES broccoli, and "sour salad" from Olive Garden
He has only had ONE broken bone, and no stitches....
He sings along with Lady GaGa
He ROCKS at Wii Dance
He would REALLY like a motorcycle - so he can be on Nitro Circus
He sleeps with me when Jayson is out of town
He loves to share my gum with everyone
His hero is his cousin Kyle
He sings in the shower
He has to spray Axe on before going to school

He is mine

I LOVE him

HE IS SIX!

Happy Birthday Mommas Man.

Bloggers Block...

I can't think of the perfect thing to say, or the perfect picture with the perfect story....
damn.