Sunday, May 15, 2011

CTR

It's been over a month since I last posted something here. I was feeling very down, and didn't want to portray my negative attitude here. I was trying to get to a better place, mentally. I sometimes feel if I just let it all out, then I feel better. Each time I would sit down to write, I felt that my attitude was too negative, and I should keep it to myself.

Today, I felt spiritually uplifted. Today, I was positive. Today, I was blessed.

Today, I slept in. I wanted to go to church, but I didn't want to get up. I came out into the kitchen to find Jos ready for church.
We've been talking A LOT about choosing the right - and here I am - NOT choosing the right. She looked so dang cute, and simply suggests that we go to our old ward, since they start at 11. What a little angel!
I am so grateful that we went. It felt good to be welcomed. It felt good to be missed. And the lessons today were just what I needed. Patience with our children, and missionary work.
I have been blessed having Joslynn in my life. She has taught me so much. I won't deny that being a step mom carries its challenges, but all in all - I'm pretty lucky!
Whenever I get a little mother daughter time with her, It reminds me how much I enjoyed talking with my mom. I wont deny, I probably talk more than I listen - but I am working on it.

Jos- I love you. I am so very lucky to have you. I can't imagine for one minute what my life would be like without you. Thank you for being and example, to me and our family. Your dad and I are so proud of the choices you are making, and the person that you are. You are the bomb.com :)

5 comments:

Josh & Shellece + 3 said...

Love the post! Never in the world did I ever think that my kids would be the example for me yet over and over again they have proved me wrong. Sometimes I feel like they were sent here to guide me in the right direction instead of me guiding them.

Hang in there girl, I know it a rough & bumpy road trying to do what is right.
Hugs~ Shellece

Unknown said...

Margaret, your post was what I needed today. We need to be good examples and try to do whats right and I think its normal for us to all feel the way you have been and I love that there are people in our lives to help us through or to give us that little push when we need it. Jos is a good girl and I know for a fact its because she has you and your example!! Im glad you had a great time at church and its just what you needed and your feeling a little more cheery :) Love you lots!!!

christine said...

kids! i swear they're coming out smarter than we ever were at their age. hugs!

[BevS] said...

Thank goodness we have kids! I can't tell you the number of times throughout the years that the only reason I have CTR is because I know that my kids are expecting me to make the right choice. Kids really do make us better than we would be on our own. Oh...I think that's Heavenly Father's plan!

Miken said...

ahh that rocks! me and eddy need a good example around... send jos over before church starts next week!! :) you rock margaret!