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I tend to blog, late at night, when I can't sleep, because I have WAY to much on my mind.
Here is to yet another bloggidy blog;

1. One week from now, I will not be able to sleep. Why? Because I will be anticipating waking up my little angels to get on a 9:05 flight outta here, to the beautiful coast of Oregon for and entire SEVEN days.

2. I feel that I deserve this vacation more that anything right now.

3. I just completed unit inspections at my property. What are these you ask? Twice a year, I have the joy of inspecting every single one of the eighty eight apartment homes on the property I manage. Some units are pleasant, clean, and smell of fresh Clorox. Others, well, they leave dog shit in the bathroom so that you can step in it! Yes, dog shit. and fresh at that. And yes - I made her take my shoe, and wash it off! AND yes, I gave her a warning notice. I can be a real mean landlord at times.

4. My property is for sale. It has been for sale for all six years that I have been managing it. However, this is the first time that it has been listed with an active broker. I have three appointments in the next three days to "tour" the property. The potential sale could mean a few things for me. A. New owner will purchase the property, but continue using EMG (current employer) as the management service. B. The new owner will NOT use EMG, but will hire me to continue managing the property for them. and C. I will no longer be needed at Riverwalk.
This entire concept is very hard for me right now. It makes me very emotional. I have no control of the situation, and just have to put on my happy pants and smile. I do not like knowing what is going to happen. I like "plans."
Honestly - I can't imagine working for another management company besides EMG. I know people change jobs all the time, but I am happy where I am. I enjoy the people I work with. I love my residents, and the property I manage. Some of the residents have become like a second family to me. I spend 40+ hours per week getting to know them, personal information. I have watched some of those children grow up, and graduate. I have held a mother, as she watched her baby pass away. I have listened to them, consulted them, helped them deal with there child's sexuality choices. I have cried, laughed, and learned with my residents. How could I leave that? As much as I whine about them, I truly love them. I can honestly say that I know each and every resident by name. (Well, maybe not the Burmees ones, but that's because the names are so dang hard!)
The sale and outcome of my property are mostly out of my control. My choices will placed before me, and I will have to choose. Of course - the best option is A. I pray that EMG continues to be the management company on the property - if not - be warned of the complete anxiety attack! (yes, I do have meds on hand)

5. My babies are growing up. I even cried thinking about Joslynn being a senior this next year. She has become the most beautiful, strong young woman. I am proud of the choices that she is making to helping her achieve eternal happiness. Addy made me promise to take her to the Barn Dance last Saturday night. She put on a skirt, and away we went. Her "crush" asked her to dance and she declined because she was nervous. Luckily she got brave and asked him before the night was over. Ashton begs and cries for either a dirt bike or a four wheeler every night. My little dare devil is gonna be the life of me.

6. We have been attending church as a family and the missionaries have been coming to our home. This is a HUGE step not only for Jayson, but our entire family. Jayson and I have talked our entire marriage about making "better choices" for our family. Were still making changes. I am so thankful for the blessings of patience that our Heavenly Father has given us, and that he has with us. Jayson and I both still have a long way to go - but the light is closer than it has EVER been. Jayson talks about the day he will drink his last beer.....it's just a talk right now, but one day it will be a reality. I can only expect him to move at his own pace. Elder Hall and Elder Williams have been such a blessing. We love having our visits with them. I can't even begin to explain the spirit and peace they bring into our home. Watching the children, and Jayson participate brings such joy to me. I am learning so much about myself, things I never knew. I tend to make this about Jayson - but really, I need it to.

7. I have the most amazing friends, ever! We have this little group that we spend most Saturday nights with. Jayson calls them his "Saturday warriors." This last Sunday, two of the families came over after church, had lunch/dinner with us, and spent the entire afternoon/evening her at our house. We cleaned up, made treats, watched the game, played outside with the kids, watched the kids "put on a play, " and went for a very short walk :) My warriors are my strength! I can NOT imagine where I would be right now without them. My weeks are not complete when we don't see them. I feel as if I need each and every one of them for an individual purpose.

8. My dad is the greatest! Just giving him a little shout-out. Growing up, he was ALWAYS working to provide for our family. He taught me that hard work didn't come easy, but the outcome is rewarding. I loved working with him on the farm, and getting life's lessons from him. I'm pretty sure the "birds and the bees" was demonstrated doing AI on a cow. I can guarantee you this - thinking that having a child meant some dude was gonna put on a glove, and shove his entire arm up me was not a pleasant thought. I stayed clear of boys (for awhile). But seriously, to this day - If I need advice, a shoulder, or a fathers blessing, my Dad is there for me. I am so grateful to live so close to him. I am so lucky that my children can ride there bikes to the barn yard, or hop in the swather with him when he's working the fields. He is an inspiring man. Keeping positive and looking forward, and always having words of wisdom.

As I have been writing my thoughts of the day,I can't help but to feel grateful. I am so lucky to have a good job, good friends, and close family. I am so lucky to be in love with my best friend. I am blessed to have three beautiful children. I am even grateful for the one dog, one lizard and three goats (PS. Roofus is leaving - he's mean to the ginny goats). I am thankful for everyday that I have to spend with the people that I love. Life is too short not to.

Laugh harder, love stronger, forgive quicker, and hold tighter.