A glimpse of 2009

I am sorry...for another post with no pictures. I really hate looking at other blogs when all I have to do is read, so for this, please forgive me.


My mother passed January 19, 2007 - so ironically each year begins with me crying because I miss her so much. I think I have cried at least once a day for the past week. My mother was an amazing person who listened to EVERYTHING I had to say - bless her heart! ( I talk a LOT) It seems as I host parties throughout the holidays I miss her a little more. My mother loved a good party with lots of family and friends feasting over good food. I'll host another party tonight, and think of her. I love and miss her!

My sweet grandmother passed away this year. What an amazing woman she was. She lost her husband while very young, and continued to run the family farm. She never re-married. She raised six very honest and successful children on her own.

I was able to attend Wicked (thank you Sam) with Judy, Jill, Margo and Dave at the Capitol in SLC. What a FUN night!

My brother lost his sweet dog Susie. She was a "good dog." Lucky for him, some jerk dropped a puppy off by Hardware Ranch in November. Kirby is now officially part of the family.

WE BUILT A HOUSE...This is something that we were going to do after two years of marriage. We will be celebrating 10 years in 3 months. I'm just glad were in! I still have days when I walk to the top of the stairs and just stare. I can't believe we are finally in!

Jayson received his 10 year recognition with CVE. We were invited to attend a nice dinner and awards ceremony at the Grand America. I am so proud of him! I admire his dedication to his job, and his willingness to work wherever, whenever. He has spent many long hours on the road, providing for our family. CVE is a great company to work for, and I am blessed to know that Jayson enjoys what he does.

After a long and very heated phone call, I think that Christy (Jayson's x) and I might just be able to speak. This has been (and probably will be) a battle until Joslynn is an adult. However, there was this ONE phone call that put us on a level we have never been before. Cross your fingers. :)

Addy got her tonsils out. She has probably needed this done for years, but one last cold let us know that it was time. Her vocals have changed so much it's almost funny. She is such a good girl. She's getting a little bossy in her day - I don't know where she gets that from. :)

Ashton was doing some tricks off his bed, that resulted in a broken arm. He got his cast on Christmas Eve. He wanted it to be in Steelers color, however they did not have yellow - so this resulted in a red cast. He will get it off in 4 weeks

Jayson got to go to Denver to see the Steelers play the Broncos. Steelers won (one of the few wins this season.) We are hoping for a better ending to the season.

I spent a fun weekend in SLC with some girls celebrating our birthdays. Were planning on another trip this summer. We ate at the The Melting Pot - so much fun! The bill for the five of us was $300+ - :) I guess you've got to have those experiences once in a while! We had quite the adventure at Cameo College getting pedicures done.

The Gittins held the annual family reunion in Park City. It's a great chance to relax and have some fun. Lots of food, games, and late nights.

Each year that passes I am grateful to have what I have. I am thankful to live so close to family - both Jaysons and I. We are both blessed with wonderful parents and siblings. I am surrounded by a wonderful extended family also.
2009 has taught me a lot about myself. I lost a very dear friendship with one of my closest friends, and offended a handful of other friends. It's amazing that at my age and married with children, friends are still as important as they were in High School.
I am not much of a resolution maker....but I have one - BE A BETTER ME! Only I can make my life enjoyable, fun, exciting, adventurous and worthwhile. I want to enjoy my life while I have it. Enjoy today...yesterday was the past, tomorrow is the future, and today is the PRESENT!
Happy 2010!

It's a LOVE/ hate relationship

To my love,

Why do you taunt me everyday (especially Mondays)? Do you understand that I want you out of my life? You are controlling this relationship and making me weak. Do you know that I must be in control at all times? I am stronger than you! You are affecting my personal standards, and I must once again ask you to leave my life! PLEASE Coke, understand that we can not be together anymore. All of that hard work to loose extra baggage...you are adding it back...slowly and steady like a slithery snake. I am a strong person, and I can not have you near me. You are my weakness. I crave you, I need you. You are my one true love. Why must you hurt me constantly? I need to be strong and leave you behind. Good bye sweet love, I must go now. Perhaps we will meet again.

All of my love, forever.

I want a new Mom

I am very sure that every child tells their parent at some moment in their sweet little lives, that they wished they had a "new mom".
Last night we went to Sams and Best Buy to look at TVs for the basement. I wouldn't let Ashton look at toys until he ate his very healthy Sams Club Pizza Dinner. He wouldn't eat, so I made Jayson take the girls and leave us at the table until he ate.As we were sitting there, he smiles every so cutely at me and says every so calmly
ashton: "Mom, I wish I had a new mom."
me: "oh really, why?"
ashton: "well, a new mom would get me whatever I want. She wouldn't have a dad (husband)either, so I could sleep with her every night."
me: "would she love you?"
ashton: " yep, more than you mom."
me: "that's too bad, cause I love you a bushel and a peck."
ashton: (giggling) "okay mom, I'll just keep you."

I must suck

What do I get a 15 yr. old girl??? How, as a parent, do I NOT know what to get my own child for Chritmas? She has asked for a CD.....a CD people!! Well, hmm...$15 later, I'm done! She just got a whole new room, with a new bed and a matress. Can you tell a kid, oh, that's Christmas? Damn, this sucks...I suck!
I am not a believer of gift cards. I think they scream, I have no idea what you want or what you like, so heres some money, go buy it yourself. I did get her some jeans, but she was with me. Ashton got her a hoodie, and Addy got her a hat and some jewlery (I hope she doesn't read my blog). I need that gift that just puts a HUGE smile on her face! The present that she thinks, "how did they know this is what I wanted?"
HELP PEOPLE.... I NEED SOME IDEAS!
Thankfully,
Sucky Mom

Traditions

DO you know what the best thing about the holidays are??? By the title of my post I bet you can't guess. TRADITIONS! Didn't see that coming, did ya?
The other day my Dad stopped by my office, and we started in on how my mother was the QUEEN of traditions. If we didn't have one, by damn, we would use someone elses. She was always trying to start up a new tradition. Now that I'm older, I wish I would have appreciated her ambition more to create great memories. I'm working on that now.
Some of my favorite... What a better way to start the New Year off with than family and Chinese Sundays? These suckers are my favorite! Some call them Hawaiian Haystacks. Aunt Nan named them otherwise, and I like the name better. Somewhere in time we started eating these on New Years day with my dads family. Jayson has learned to "like" these, otherwise he would not be welcome in the family.
Purchasing a "real" Christmas tree on December 5th. Jennifers birthday was the 5th, so it somehow became the day we would buy a tree. I love a real tree! Jayson and I go to the Merrill Family Tree Farm on the 5th, and buy our family tree. One of our first Christmases together we got us a good 'ol charlie brown tree, just because we could. That poor thing was about to fall over by the time we decorated it.
Each year we purchase a new Hallmark Ornament for each of us. The kids have really started to enjoy this, and like to help pick out the ornament they would like. The first ornament I bought Jos was a little angel. She says that one is still her favorite.
Easter is spent at the Westons for Judys annual Easter Egg Hunt. She usually hides 300+ eggs for all of us to find. Some eggs have money, car wash tokens, or just good old fashioned candy. The bad thing about this holiday...somehow Ashton always ends up wet in the pond. I guess you could call this a tradition too.
Jayson cooks up a mean corned beef and cabbage dinner for St. Patty's. Last year we added "Colcanon Potatoes" to the mix, and that my friends will be a new addition to this holiday! Those babies were the BEST!
Firework Chasing is what I do best, and each year Jayson reminds me how much he loves me for that. I do WHATEVER I can to make sure that we see EVERY show in the valley during the summer. Health Days in Smithfield has the first show of the season.
Pioneer Day is spent in North Logan, and the world best parade. The parade starts on the corner of my grandparents lawn. Gran always decorated a float for the grand kids, so that we could ride in the parade. Now, my sweet aunties do it for the great-grandchildren. We then enjoy a great lunch with the cousins and aunties in Aunt Maries back yard.
"Sometime" during the week between Christmas and New Years the Beutler family gathers for a great day on the Ice. I grew up going to the outdoor rink in Logan. Now we enjoy the comfort of the Eccles Ice Center.
Jayson grilling...this in itself is a family tradition. Jayson is GREAT on the grill, and cooks up a mean Pork Tenderloin that is requested a most major family functions.
I have hosted Thanksgiving twice now, and am anticipating 2011! Thanks to great family, yesterday was such a wonderful day. My kitchen was full of great cooks, and the home was filled with love and laughter. I might add that the Turkey this year was EXCEPTIONAL! Whatever I did...I'm writing it down and repeating it next time.
Memorial Weekend is spent at Camp Cushman, usually in the rain, with great friends and a lot of beer for the men. Kids are usually covered in mud, and have smiles you can't wipe off. A lot of great food is cooked, and late nights around the campfire.
My NEW tradition is the pre-food party held Thanksgiving Eve. We gathered some friends this year, and had a lot of great appetizers. We were "belly stretching."
Most of all, I love tradition for the simple fact that traditions are made of great memories with those you love. I am so thankful to have so many people in my life that I have so many great memories with.
to all my traditions, and more to come...
What's your favorite tradition?

Oh my goodness...YUMMY chicken!

Nothing better than throwing something in the crock pot, and coming home after a long day to dinner ready. My girlfriend Celeste brought this idea to me last weekend, and I twisted it just a little. Here's both...

4-5 Large un-cooked Chicken Breasts
1 Cube Butter
1 pkg. dry Italian Spice mix
( I had about 1/2 C dressing in the fridge, and used that too)

Crock pot on low heat for 6 hours, shred
Add:

Celeste's version:
1 8oz. pkg. cream cheese
1 can cream of chicken
Serve over rice or noodles

Margaret's version:
1 can cream of chicken
1 can Ro-Tel
1/2 C sour cream
serve in hot tortillas
(or make a huge plate of Nachos!)

The Italian dressing, and butter do something to this chicken that makes you want to eat it by the spoonful. Either way ----this was SO YUM!

Pumpkin Dessert

With all the fall ideas out there, I thought I would throw you another one. Jayson is NOT a fan of Pumpkin, and actually likes this one. It's a different twist on Pumpkin Pie. If any of you have heard of this recipe, it is usually made with a vanilla cake mix, and no nuts or oatmeal. I love the addition of spice cake...and anything is better with nuts! :)

PUMPKIN DESSERT:
Crust:
1 pkg spice cake mix
1/2 C. melted butter
1 egg
1/2 quick oats
1/2 C chopped nuts
Combine in bowl, Reserve 2/3 C for crumble topping. Press into greased 9x13 pan.

Filling: Pour over pressed crust
1 Lg. can Libbys Pumpkin Pie Mix (26 oz)
1 Can Evaporated Milk
2 eggs - slightly beaten
1 Tbls. Pumpkin Spice Mix

Topping: Sprinkle over pumpkin topping
2/3 C reserved crumble
1/2 C Sugar
3 tsp. cinnamon
1/4 C quick oats
1/4 C Chopped nuts

Bake at 350 for 45 min. Let cool for one hour. Serve or refrigerate for later

Happy Thanksgiving! Enjoy!

Pioneer Woman, take 1

I went home so excited to cook out of this new cookbook, so I found a reason to cook last night. A cute gal in my ward was in desperate need for a treat :), and she would be my excuse to make this wonderful thing!
My grammy made something similar called Texas sheet cake, but I haven't gotten out the rec. to see just how similar they are.
This only took about 30 min to prepare, and was super yum! Instead of using a jelly roll pan, I divided it into two 9X13, and sent the other one wtih Jayson to work. Enjoy!

Pioneer Woman Chocolate Sheet Cake
Combine in a mixing bowl:
2 cups flour
2 cups sugar
1/4 teaspoon salt
In a saucepan, melt:
2 sticks butter
Add 4 heaping tablespoons cocoa.
Stir together. Add 1 cup boiling water, allow mixture to boil for 30 seconds, then turn off heat. Pour over flour mixture, and stir lightly to cool.

In measuring cup,
pour 1/2 cup buttermilk.
Add:2 beaten eggs
1 teaspoon baking soda
1 teaspoon vanilla
Stir buttermilk mixture into butter/chocolate mixture.

Pour into sheet cake pan and bake at 350-degrees for 20 minutes.

While cake is baking, make icing:
Chop 1/2 cup pecans finely.
Melt 1 3/4 sticks butter in a saucepan.
Add 4 heaping tablespoons cocoa, stir to combine, then turn off heat.
Add:6 tablespoons milk
1 teaspoon vanilla
1 lb minus 1/2 cup powdered sugar
Stir together. Add pecans, stir together, and pour over warm cake.

Cut into squares, eat, and totally wig out over the fact that you’ve just made the best chocolate sheet cake. Ever.

Pioneer Woman

I am so excited! I pre-ordered this cookbook 3 months ago....and it's here! Remember how I thought I felt a fall cooking day coming on...well, this just puts the cherry on the cream. Saturday will be a great day.

hot to cook!

As I am sure you are all aware, we moved into our new home last Friday. This past week has been so much fun, learning where I put everything. My kids are loving having that ENTIRE basement to themselves, and I am enjoying a bathroom that is my very own...with the fact that I do have to share with a boy!
I promise...I will post this weekend with pics of the house. I really wanted to get it all decorated before I did that however. I went from 2 very small houses, to this one that feels like a mansion. All of my home decor goes on "smaller" walls, so It's a little bit of a challenge. I'm working on it though...and will keep you all updated!
As for the kitchen...ah...true love! Double Ovens, Butcher Block, and Gas Stove Top...HEAVEN! As for the dishwasher, well...not love! I know, how? what? why? Well, I have been hand washing dishes in scalding hot water for my ENTIRE married life...all 10 years! Plus, years before that because my mother had severe arthritis, and her dishwasher didn't work. I have found myself the past few evenings washing dishes by hand. It does something to my soul. Calms me, relaxes me, puts me a peace. Plus, I KNOW how clean they are. I have found myself only putting utensils, cups, and bowls in the dishwasher. This might take some getting used to!
Now, for the butcher block, I could kiss this baby! I think I should name her since we are becoming such close friends. Together, in one week, we have made cinnamon rolls, orange rolls, 30 min rolls, and pumpkin pie (from REAL pumpkins). This weekend I feel doughnuts coming on...that's right...OPEN INVITATION TO COME GET SOME HOT SPUDNUTS SATURDAY MORNING! I'm not sure what else I will work up, but I feel a fall baking day coming on!

I-Fly'd

Ashton has been wanting to "fly" FOREVER! On Saturday we went down to Soloman Center in Ogden to i-Fly. Joslynn, Ashton, Celeste, Brady and I all flew! It was so much fun. I was so nervous, but I figured if my little man could do it, so could I. Ashton was AWESOME! He held his body the "right" way, and got the full flight advantage. His instructor was so great with him. We all had so much fun and can't wait to go back!

Little Man

I can not stand that this little guy is now 5! He is growing up way to fast.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMAS MAN!

thankful

I know, It's Halloween not Thanksgiving. However, I feel an overwhelming sense of thanks today and wanted to share.
(just some things) I AM THANKFUL FOR....
*1 acre corner lot, with the best view *Wonderful in-laws who have let us live with them for the last week *A reliable car (even with a flat tire last night) to drive all over this beautiful valley in *A husband who greets me at the door when I am at the end of my rope to tell me he loves me *Parents who taught me that with faith and understanding, all things are possible *A father who can fix my flat tire *Three amazing children *Great friends who come to my rescue day after day *A great job *A contractor who understands my obsession with Clorox and perfection *My dog Zoey who loves me and snuggles me no matter what *Coke and Alieve *My sis who sends me the cutest pics of my niece and nephew (cause they love Aunt Maggie mostest) *My brother who checks in on me, and fills me in on the latest *"mammas man" *running water *warm bread *funny texts *comments on my blog :) *a new home *old friends....and new friends *Logan City for giving me a trash can to haul all my shit away in *My aunties who call me all the time *The Pumpkin Walk, and the thought of tradition *family *my funny sis who JUST sent me a pic of her in a green M&M costume (she keeps it real) *Joslynns little notes she leaves me when I've had a bad day *second mothers *the gospel *my mom!! (miss you) *life's lessons *grandparents *Clorox *Addys pictures on my fridge *pictures *memories *Sunday dinner *anything with carbs * holidays *gatherings *neighbors *treats *beauticians *the smell of new carpet *teachers *books *toothpaste *my fathers advice *kool-aid and popcorn *my testimony *shoes *baby lotion *the smell of fresh cut hay *my husband *epidurals *America *freedom *a bed to sleep in *warmth *siblings *forgiveness *gratitude *love

Moving and so on....

I have to admit, I am ADDICTED to my blog, your blog, and everyone else's blog, and a little facebook on the side. Needless to say, I feel that I have this constant connection to everyone in the world. They can enjoy, laugh and cry with me all at the same time - and I don't even know about it, until they publish a comment or story about it.
Last week I posted a little note on facebook, something like - Please don't ask when we are moving in. Why? I am on the verge of a breakdown! So I will share with you a little story. Grab your blanky, find a warm spot, get settled in. Are you ready?
The rental story: In August of 2006, we put our house up for sale. It sold 2 months later. We were lucky enough to rent a home 3 HOUSES SOUTH, yes, 3 houses. New neighborhood, new ward, new neighbors. We told the landlord that we would be renting for a year, MAX! - - Oh, right - 3 YEARS LATER,we finally moved out!
I am a landlord as a profession, so I can only imagine how Ms. Curtis felt. She had talked of selling the house, renting it to family, or just renting it again. When we finally started building we thought we would be out Sept.1, but that didn't happen either. She was being so patient with me, but I could feel the un-welcome bug creeping in.
We have been trying to move every week since September, but it hasn't been happening. Thankfully we built Jayson a huge storage unit...oh, I mean shop (hahahaha), and have been taking loads of stuff down every weekend.
THE HOLD UP - We (Todd and I) decided to do concrete counter tops for the entire house. Todd had never done these before, but was really excited to try. 1st problem - waiting for the check from the bank, 2nd problem - has to order more red dye, 3rd problem - It is a four step process, with each step needing 24 hours in between, 4th problem - needed to order MORE RED dye. We FINALLY got everything...and then it's just a PROCESS! I AM SO HAPPY with the counters. The plumber couldn't come until counters were set, and you can't get a final clearance until EVERYTHING is done.
We decided to go ahead and move the past weekend and then stay with Jaysons parents. We hoped that we would have clearance on Monday. We spent all day Saturday moving, thanks to some VERY great friends with trucks and trailers. Sunday I spent the day at the rental CRYING and cleaning. It took ALL day, and as a landlord, I hope Ms. Curtis is thankful for my cleaning skills.

The "redneck" way of moving a trampoline

What I start to look like after 3 days of no sleep!

Lunch break, have to feed the help!

MONDAYS small DISASTER-
Jayson and I both took off work yesterday to final up some things on the house, while the "workers" were sanding down the counter tops. I was arranging the house and was planning on going into work about noon. Well, at about 11:30 we had a little disaster. Something happened with the well when they were turning it on, and it blew water OUT of the utility room onto yes, my new carpet! THANKFULLY, my good friend and neighbor is Wade Rasmussen AKA Absolutely Clean Carpets. ( He is great, and always willing to help out my friends. You can call him at 512-1402!) He was on the way to clean the rental, and I asked him to stop at the new house to exact the water. He said everything looked fine, but...well..arghhHH! We turned up the heat, and put fans near the wet spots. I think it is all taken care of. I must have been pretty tired, because It didn't seem to really matter. Quick fix, all better!

Now a little note about the house - I am SO excited for a NEW home, I just DON'T want to move. I love my Dad very much, and want my kids to be able to run and play at the farm, and have a HUGE farm as a backyard playground. HOWEVER - the Woolfs are the most amazing people in the world!

Steve and JennaVee are the WORLDS BEST NEIGHBORS!!! We LOVE them. Jayson started calling me Margaret Woolf at some point over the past three years. They take care of us, invite us over, bring in the trash can, feed us, love us, and accept us. We have had many great memories that involve the Woolfs and their entire family over the past few years. Sunday Carmel popcorn is one of my favorites :) We love everyone of them.

Saturday when we were getting the "last" load out JennaVee and Anna came over. I started to cry, and the minute they were out of sight, I started to BAWL! I was crying so hard I couldn't breath. I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE MY CORNER! Jayson just held my hand and didn't say a word. It was at this moment that I realized the reason I have been so blah about my new house is because I would rather have my old house with great neighbors. Katie and Rex (the neighbors dogs) were even making me cry.

I will miss this old house, and everything about it. The leak in Ashtons ceiling, hot water faucet in the main bath that doesn't work, creaky floor, sump pump in the laundry, small kitchen, fireplace in the living room, doors that won't lock (yes, you could have been robbing us for years), old barns for the kids to play in, WONDERFUL neighbors - Woolfs, Atwoods, Russells, and the Weeks, ALL the dogs in Paradise coming over for Sunday treats, selling Saturday doughnuts on the corner, the park 1 block away, the bay window that my kids think is where coats and backpacks go, the old wood burning stove pipe that the birds like to come through,the COKE machine 1 block away, the fire pit, the porch that will one day collapse, the dogs that shit on my lawn, the cows that shit on my lawn, the basement that leaks when the pasture renters don't turn off the sprinklers, the fire department in all it's glory 1 block away, fresh produce on my doorstep, not having a garage, all the HUGE rock for Ashton to find bugs under, the great hill to ride your bike off, City utilities, Ms. Curtis, my OWN closet, "the hidden closet," where ALL my crap goes, neighbor kids thinking I make the BEST treats around, walking late at nigh with street lights, talking in the middle of the road, and a GREAT family ward!
For those of you who don't know where I live, or where I am moving - here's the details. We live on 9100 S, and are moving to 7800 S - Yes 13 "blocks, " 2 MILES North. You would think that we are moving to the other end of the world. But, not being able to yell across the street, do morris code with lights in the kitchen window, send the kids over for whatever ingredient I am missing, have fresh Steve garden produce, or simply enjoy our visits in the middle of the road is the hardest thing for me to emotionally deal with. I KNOW that I can visit them anytime - but for now, no one will understand how this is tearing me apart. I can't thank the Woolf family enough for who they have been to me or my family over the past three years. It is a relationship that I will treasure throughout my life. Kaden and Bridger are my "other" kids, and I love them so much. They might just have to have sleepovers at my house. Jayson said I have to give up one of my night visits with my Dad to have one with the Woolfs :) We will miss you, but never forget! Thank you for a wonderful 3 years! (yes, crying hysterically again)

This is the view I love from my porch, the Woolfs back door- ALWAYS open and inviting!

As for the new house... today Tuesday October 27... 1. carpet man finishing grout in bathroom and pantry and putting down transition pieces. 2. Cutting seems in driveway concrete to prevent cracking. 3. Finishing up counter tops. 4. Plumber finishing up 5. "touch up" 6. Final Inspection today at 4:00....with high hopes and dreams! :)

fall festivities

I love fall! It is my most favorite time of the year. I get so excited at all the fun things that I can do with my kids. The Pumpkin Walk is right around the corner, Fall Festival at Hardware Ranch, Halloween parties, Halloweenie Roast (my kids FAVORITE) and so many others! We kicked this season off with a new one - Gardners Village.

what a beautiful, fun day.

This was our "serious" pose with Helga Hyperspeed

Monica, me, Addy, Helga, Maddy, Jos and Presley.

Ashton was off looking at the cockroach graveyard.

Spiderman - all he wanted all day was his face pinted!

Addys "real" smile

We had a fantastic day - letting all the house worries wait for another day :)

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

put my &*#^% pants on!

I swear the cabinets have been a true test of my faith. I took about 6 different bids to make sure I was getting what I wanted in my Kitchen. We finally decided that _________ would be the best one to go with. My only problem (before Friday) was this guy says "ya know what I mean" after EVERYTHING! Gets kinda annoying, but I could deal. THEN, on Thursday while I am in Heber, stressing about the house, I call him to make sure we are good for delivery on Friday - and the story begins.

THURSDAY:
man: Oh, I'm sorry Margaret, the paint needs to dry a little more before we put the knobs on, "ya know what I mean"
me: you mean the second coat? (my kitchen cabinets are white)
man: yes. I want them to be perfectly dry, "ya know what I mean"
me: we'll, I'm not very happy, but I can understand
man: we will try to have them out Friday night. If not - First thing Monday morning, "ya know what I mean"

FRIDAY:
me: Hello man, are we going to be able to get cabinets delivered today
man: uh, I don't think so, that paint is hard to dry "ya know what I mean"
me: so first thing Monday?
man: yes, we get them loaded tonight and have them ready for Monday, "ya know what I mean"
me: we'll, I'm not very happy, but I can understand

MONDAY:
1st phone call-
me: good morning - what time should I expect you today?
man: we need to let that paint dry, "ya know what I mean"
me: I thought that was Friday?
man: well, that was the first coat, "ya know what I mean"
me: (BIG SIGH) so, what are you thinking your timeline is then?
man: first thing tomorrow!

2nd phone call-
me: What time tomorrow?
man: can you unlock the house at 6am?
me: that will be fine

3rd phone call-
me: I just can to CONFIRM that we will have cabinets tomorrow. We are supposed to be moving in this weekend, and I can't have counter TOPS, until I have COUNTERS!
man: were just putting on the knobs, and then we will load them up for tomorrow....."ya know what I mean"
me: Is this a guarantee? I need to make a time with counter top man
man: yes, Margaret.
(do we think the man is getting annoyed?)

TUESDAY:
6am - Unlocked house
8am - NO CABINET MAN YET!
8:10 - phone call to cabinet man
me: Good morning - I hate to be that pain in the ass customer, but you are staring to be the pain in the ass cabinet man! Where are my cabinets, and why did I unlock the house at 6am if you aren't there yet?
man: We had to load them this morning, "ya know what I mean"
me: you mean the loading that was being done at 3pm yesterday when I was talking to you? You do understand that counter tops take 1 week, and I don't have a week? I would very much so appreciate your honesty, not smoke up my ass!
man: (getting grumpy) I am sorry, and they should be at your house any minute
me: Well, I sure hope so... It is Tuesday, "YA KNOW WHAT I MEAN!!"

so...at 8:30 on my way to work I stopped at the house...and....cabinets are in my house. Not installed, but at my house - with two very "cheerful" installers starting to install cabinets!

pictures to follow... :)

Still 29...

My mothers birthday would have been this Wednesday, and since I will be at a Managers Retreat...and it's on my mind, I will write my thoughts now.
My Great Aunt passed away Sept 23, 2008. She had been sick, and in the hospital for a few days. I've always thought that my mother came to escort her to the other side, because she wanted one of her favorite people to share her birthday with her. Mom always loved a good party, with lots of yummy food!
I've been thinking so much of my mother these past few days, and have been on a pretty emotional roller coaster. Tonight when I got home, the kids asked what was for dinner - I was so happy to make Tomato Soup and Noodles - yep, that's it...elbow noodles and tomato soup. Mom used to make it all the time - so simple, yet the best thing on a cool fall evening.
We sat at the table and remembered wonderful things about my mom. Jos talked of how my mom could make friends with ANYONE, even in the grocery store line. She always had a positive attitude, and would drop anything to help you. Addy gets a little more emotional when she talks about her Mauree. I watched the tears well up as she remembered my mom making special treats for her, tea parties, walks to play with the kittens or feed the cows. Mom and Addy were the best of friends.
So many thoughts fill my soul as I think of the time I had with my mom. Jayson and I lived with my parents for 2 years - 2 glorious years that I am so thankful to have had. I loved taking my mom on rides to town, making something tasty, driving to 1888 to check on Gran and Grandad, watching a good Doris Day movie, or watching her love my Addy as if no one else in the world could be any more perfect than her.
It's been almost three years since I lost my mom, and some days the tears wont stop. Oh how I wish I could just call her up, and tell her about Ashtons new Halloween costume he's been running around in for the past two days, or how Addy gets 100% on her spelling and Math every day, or how Jos is a TEENAGER, and I am so sorry for rolling my eyes! I wish she could see my new house, and my wonderful kitchen, because that is in fact the MOST important room in any good wife's home (thanks mom).
Birthdays are for celebrating, so I will hold back my sobbing emotions. Life is so wonderful, and I was taught to live it to the fullest!
I miss you mom! Happy Birthday.

Happy Birthday Baby!

September 18, 2000 I was blessed with my first born. Addy Lee Gittins was born at 10:38am, weighing 7lb. 6 oz. My beautiful little pea had NO hair - and was perfect in every way. Addy is the light of my day, keeping me on my toes. My family keeps telling her she is a tiny little mini me! :), poor girl!

Love you Boo - Happy Birthday!

Just a little reminder...

Were having a Party...
Saturday,

yes THIS SATURDAY
at the Paradise Town Hall
10:00-1:00
*Shoes
*Purses
*True Religion Jeans
*Scentsy
Please come...

bring a friend, gab, and enjoy a treat!

It's really going to happen!

We are 20 days from moving into our new home! YEA! I took my lunch today with Todd, our contractor, to finalize up some things. Jayson is finishing the back porch tonight, tomorrow is trim and closets. Monday will finish up closets and start priming and paint. Wednesday, Thursday and Friday I have taken vacation to do all the "accent" painting! Mike will be installing carpet, wood, and tile the week of the 21st, and cabinets should go in that week too---oh my heck, it's going to happen so fast, and then
WE WILL HAVE OUR NEW HOUSE!
I can't thank those who have been helping Jayson on the side enough. Tony Sharp and Dusty Gillman have put so much time into our electrical. Sammy has been so much help with the concrete, Brenton, Brett, Jason, Red, Jody, Pisser, Jake,and Jeremy. This list goes on, and I feel very fortunate to have such great friends! Thank you to all!
Jayson has put so much time into this house, and all his extra side work has made it possible for me to have my amazing kitchen, thanks babe! I LOVE YOU! Todd was great to work on sweat equity with us, not all contractors HONESTLY are, so thank you Todd.

This house building has been a great experience, and I can't wait to show you all the finished project!

I want to be like Julia

So for a great sabbath evening, we took the kids to the movie. I know, not a Sunday activity. I went to church, made a wonderful home cooked meal, and wanted to see Julia and Julie.... Okay, no excuses...I just do whatever I want no matter what day of the week it is!

Jayson has been wanting to see GI Joe, and the ONLY reason I want to see this movie is so that I can drool over Channing Tatum, YUM! BUT, Julia and Julie was playing at the same time. Problem solved - boys to GI Joe, girls to Julia and Julie.
I have been inspired! Did I mention that I CAN NOT WAIT FOR MY NEW HOUSE WITH MY WONDERFUL KITCHEN, Butcher Block, Double Oven, DISHWASHER, counter space, HUGE pantry and my cookbooks at my fingertips? More excited that I can even begin to utter out of my mouth! My kitchen is my love. I have put more thought into that kitchen than an other thing in or on the house.
Back to Julia and Julie...This movie could be about me...well not really, but I would love to do it! She cooks the entire Julia Child cookbook in 365 days. How great would this be? This might just make the diet a complete loss, but It would be so worth it.
When my mom passed away Jennifer wanted the China, and I wanted the cookbooks. I remember my mom cooking from the Joy of Cooking, and I think I might just need to crack that sucker open. However - I feel the urge to go to Borders tomorrow, and grab some new books. I love going to Borders for cookbooks. They are always on SALE, or better yet, on CLEARANCE. I once bought 5 cookbooks for $10. Even if I only love a few ideas per book - it's still great! It's fun to have a freash idea and an option.
I wanted to come home and COOK, but it's a little late...and I AM OUT OF EGGS! Who runs out of eggs? Oh yes, that would be me after cooking Banana Bread, Banana Bars (I had lots of bad Bananas) and the most wonderful meatballs, I have gone through...36...yes...36 eggs in two days! And the worst part...I couldn't eat any of it! (diets SUCK!) I tried a new recipe for the bread and the bars. The meatballs - they are heavenly - and I don't do meatballs! Jaysons mom gave me that one, and he said I make them better than his momma...sad I know. No, not that she gave me a great recipe, or that I have perfected them, but that Jayson still calls her MAMMA. I tease him ALL the time. His mom is a wonderful cook, and I am lucky to have such a wonderful mother-in-law.
What to cook...oh, only dreams will tell. I'll post about it tomorrow :)"SWEET" dreams.
PS - you can pre order your copy of Pioneer Woman Cooks on Amazon NOW!

These are a few of my favorite things...

I thought I should share some fun info with you...

WERE HAVING A PARTY

Who doesn't love or need some

Fun shoes a good smelling house, car and office

something cute to put your stuff in

and a great pair of jeans


Join us:
Saturday September 19
for a fun, fantastic PARTY!
Bring your friends, neighbors, sisters and their friends
More details to follow...
bet you can't wait!

July 24th

Yes, I know that it is August 22, but I wanted to post this one...

Pioneer day has always been one of my favorite holidays. As a young child, my grandma (Gran) would decorate a parade float for all of the grandkids to ride in the North Logan parade. I remember riding to Salt Lake with my mom and Gran to Modern Display to get all the new glitz for the float. The North Logan parade is unlike any other. It's the BEST parade. Lots of thought and time goes into all of the floats, bike parade, and pioneer children singing and walking.

I don't know who any of these people are...just giving you an idea of what a great parade it is.

This was our float, so fun with ALL the cousins.

This years float theme was, "Days until the Pumpkin Walk." We love the Pumpkin Walk. My wonderful grandparents Wally and Ida Beutler started the Pumpkin Walk in Grandads fields years ago. Gran had a great love for Halloween, and wanted to create a fun, free family activity that people could attend on Halloween. The city of North Logan has since taken over it, and Nancy Israelsen helps carry on the tradition of something I hold very true and close to my heart.

My wonderful aunties have carried on the tradition of doing this for the great-grandchildren. My kids look forward to it each year. This year my sister was out of town, so she let me take Tristin and KarLee. They were so excited to throw the candy.

Aunt Marie, Aunt Diane, and Aunt Nan


We met afterwards at the Godfreys for yummy BBQ's, salads, treats and homemade kettle corn (thanks Aunt Diane). I come from a wonderful family of cooks.

It was great to see all my cousins and visit. LOVE YOU GUYS! Next year we are planning a reunion, and I am so excited! I love being with my family
just cousins, hangin out having a great time!

my cute cousin Rebecca, who is getting married in September. YEA - CONGRATS!

Thanks again to my wonderful family who reminds me how great of a heritage I come from.

the show down

Ashton and Logan gave us a little show last night. Logan is one year YOUNGER than my little small fry! These boys were so cute, and as you can HEAR, everyone enjoyed the show.

Yes, that is my man, beat'n down his younger cousin! He comes at him with fightin fists, but stops to pose for mom. At the very end you can hear Logan give out a little "ouch."

Gittins Family Fun

Due to the fact that the summer has been a little hectic... good 'ol Utah will have to do for our family vacation. It all started Tuesday night. I have never been to Chuck E Cheese (I know--- lame) but ya know, it's where a kid can be a kid. My girlfriend Kaehla and I took the kids, along with her niece and nephew Brian and JoAnn. It wasn't so bad, but I doubt we will be going again :) It's a glorified Fun Park. Id much rather Fat Cats in Ogden.

BFF's Jos and Maddy

Enjoying treats!

the whole gang - Ashton, Brian, JoAnn, Addy, Maddy and Jos - with Chuck E

We stayed the night at my cousin Margo's. She was so gracious to let me bring eight people into her home for a sleepover. We had a great time, made some great breakfast - set the smoke detector off, and even did some early morning shopping at Target.

We all went to Cherry Hill on Wednesday. I had never been there either - I know, can you even imagine! The kids had a great time, swimming for hours. The great thing...no one got burnt. Ashton was a little red on the tummy from laying on the lazy river all day.

He was just taking a small rest before going back down the slides

I played it safe, and put a shirt on him on day two. Kaehla, Brian and JoAnn went home Wednesday night, while the kids and I stayed another night with Margo. We went to the Gateway and did some shopping. The kids were so tired, they were happy to go to bed. Swimming wore them right out!

Thursday we did Cherry Hills again with Jaysons sisters and kids. We had such a great time playing with the cousins.

Amber and Addy

Jos and Maddy

Jaxon, Addy Logan and Ashton having a snack

The kids were a little worn out after two days of swimming. We stayed the night in Grantsville at Debbies house with all the cousins. I woke up early (did I mention that vacations are NOT for sleeping) to make Biscuits and Sausage gravy for everyone. We set off on our convoy to Park City early Friday afternoon. Jayson came with his parents.

Todd and Debbie got us reservations at the Westgate again, an it is such a fun place. We met everyone at the mountain and started with the Alpine Slide. Addy was a little upset that she had to drive herself this time, because she was too tall - seriously, Addy too tall? I think she was more afraid than anything. She did great, and had a smile at the end.

My favorite girls Jos, Addy and Maddy
Friday night the kids swam and ate Pizza while the adults went to Midway to the Zermatt to have Seafood Buffet. Do you all know how I feel about things that swim? NOT REALLY A FAN!But I was a good sport for all of those who enjoy it. Jayson was in heaven - I ate a whole lot of veggies and dessert. We laughed the entire time. Jayson learned how to speak Weeblish, his new own personal made up Jayson language. For those of you who know my husband - he is a large child who does not want to grow up. Maybe we should have taken him to Check E Cheese.

Good times riding in the back seat

Ashton and Jos hang'in in the hot tub

Addy with Cassidy and Emily and "George Washington" hair

Saturday we woke up to snow on the mt. caps and rain. IT WAS BEAUTIFUL! The girls and I went shopping, and Jayson hung out in the room with the boys. We played games, ate, laughed, ate more, ate, ate, did I mention that we were ALWAYS eating? GOOD food - just A LOT!

My little Diva in training.

Sunday morning we headed back up to the Mt. for the coaster ride. We played a little bit at the outlets, ate some more, and headed home...

HOME SWEET HOME!

shopping for the NEEDS

Isn't she a beauty? Jayson knows how much I want a double oven - and a good one at that. Let's just say this new addition to our family ate more than half the appliance allowance...but we were planning on it! Jayson wanted me to have the very best since I love being in the kitchen so much.

This wasn't my first choice, but next in line. I wanted the french doors, but not a big fan of water on the door...but considering I got the double ovens, Jayson can have his ice and water :)

We spent ALL day looking at flooring, lighting, cabinets, and appliances. We purchased the ovens, microwave, fridge, hood vent, and garbage disposal. I wasn't set on the cook top I saw- so I'll keep searching. We signed our cabinet contract today, and picked out hardware. I'm having some mental problems wrapping my brain around the flooring. I felt like it was a pretty productive day, but damn...I'm worn OUT!

where did July go?

I am at work, yes, not working...and all my pics are on my home computer - so they will have to come later!
What a month! It seems like it just started, and in a week it will be over. Our family has been busy liv'in the dream...what dream I'm not quite sure, but it's a good one.
Joslynn spent 2 weeks with her mom in St. George, mostly in the pool the entire time. She got back just in time for girls camp. Moms were invited for the first part. We took a tour of the Oqurriah Temple, and it was so great to share that experience with Joslynn. We then went to Temple Square and listened to the sister missionaries share some Hymns and their testimonies with us. The girls then had a short testimony meeting. We ate lunch at Lion House Pantry (mmmm), and then left for home. The girls stayed the night at a KOA, played games, ate food, and had fun! They spent the next day at the Salt Lake DUP Museum.
We celebrated my big-brothers birthday on July 4th up Blacksmith Fork. They purchased 30+ acres, and have named it the "Dragon Ass." Marni got Andrew a pool for his birthday, and the kids enjoyed it very much! I love spending time with my family. It was a great day to relax!
The 4-way inspection was done this morning, Drywall and sheeting starting tomorrow. Doors by Friday, and Windows and Siding next week. We are getting so very excited for a new house - just wish we didn't have to leave our neighbors and friends. ( I know, we are moving 2 WHOLE MILES, but it feels like the other side of the world. Our house is supposed to be done by Sept 1 - YIKES, 5 weeks away!
I just finished up a State Audit at Riverwalk with flying colors - whew! I hate audits. Went home at 4:30 with a migraine from the dark side. Jayson is still working out of town, so It's a little hard to function without him. He is in Fillmore (or the Fillmore beaver area as the joke goes), for ONE more week - yea right! That was the story last week.
Ashton took off his training wheels - and was OFF! NO HELP! Now...he wants a motorcycle. WHAT??? Ashton wasn't to be like the boys on Nitro Circus. He's my little Evil Knievel, and it freaks me out! Brady (our neighbor) brought over his Razor motorbike, and Ashton got on and rode off...no shoes, no helmet. This boy is gonna put me in the grave. Jayson went to KSL, and is determined to get him a motorbike and riding gear ASAP! AGHHH.
like they say, it's a crazy life, but it's mine.

if tomorrow never comes...

Isn't it ironic how an event in our life can make us sober? My mishap with my girlfriend last Monday has made me think of a few things. I have wonderful friends, family, and an amazing husband!
"If tomorrow never comes, will they know how much I love them?"
Jayson has been working so hard at work, and doing "sweat equity" on the house on the side. Works been a little "much" lately, and I've been worried about him. He's not angry, or pissy...just...well, WARN OUT! He slept in Sunday morning till 10:30 - THIS NEVER HAPPENS! This man wakes up at 5:30 just to make breakfast each weekend.
Last weekend I went out with the girls to Salt Lake. We enjoyed a VERY expensive dinner at The Melting Pot, soooo much fun - and shopping and more eating on Saturday. Jayson kept the kids, happily, and still managed to frame the porch for the porch cap. When I got home the kids had went out to Grandmas, and Jayson and I spent some time at the house just talking.
Tuesday night I came home with a migraine. It's been awhile since I've had one that bad. He ran to Hyrum, got McDonald's for Addy and Ashton (Jos is visiting her mom), started a movie and went to help Steve haul hay. Came home, picked up, bathed kids and took out the trash and let me sleep. Yes, I slept from the time I got home until 7 this morning.
When I got to work, I noticed that one of my friends had posted a link to last nights Americas Got Talent, for a Mr. Kevin Skinner. *check it out on You Tube*
I started to cry..sob...bawl! This guy is good, but it was the song he sings.

Jayson - I just want you to know - If tomorrow never comes, I LOVE YOU! You are an amazing person. I know that I whine A LOT, about A LOT, and forget sometimes that you are the one thing that still keeps me in my place and smiling! You go to work everyday so that we have have what we need/want. I know that every marriage has it's storms, and we have endured many - but the sun keeps coming back. I loved you then, I love you now!
PJ

Life is like a box of Chocolates

Whenever a box of chocolates is put in front of me, I immediately see if it has a map on/or in the box to guide me to my choice. IF the stupid thing has no map I pick up a MILK chocolate, turn it upside down, dig a small hole in the bottom to check out what's inside. If it's not what I want, I simply place it back in the box, and move to the next option. I'm sure you can only imagine how much everyone loves eating the box of chocolates after I have gone through them.
How great would life be if we could made the same choices? Just simply put back what you don't like or want and move on! Too bad that's not how it works.
I love my life - the ups, downs and in-between. The downs can REALLY suck, but I try to made the ups outweigh them.
recent down: In the last week, the only thing that has been done on my house is the framing of the shop. EIGHT WORKING DAYS PEOPLE - that's like a MAX. 2 day job. The trusses, and power source were delivered yesterday - BUT NO WORK! AGHHH! THE POSITIVE to this... We are still getting a new house, just maybe not at the assumed date expected. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe this is all part of the contractors plan.
another down: I hurt one of my friends, not intentionally! I didn't realize how much I had hurt her. Our friendship is over - yes, that bad! She was so angry with me, that I couldn't even talk to her. It has hurt all week, and I just want to make it better - but I don't think this one can be fixed. I can't imagine not talking to her again - but I am going to use it as a learning lesson to appreciate and listen more to those around me. I took advantage of her and her wonderful friendship - and I don't want to ruin another friendship.

My kids are my world, and I love them so much. I don't think I take the time to snuggle them, or love them like I should. I kissed Ashtons sweet face this morning as I picked him up out of bed. My little Addy calls me THE MINUTE she pulls herself out of bed to tell me good morning, and what she should do today. Jos is on her way to the Temple to watch some children, while a marriage is performed. What a beautiful, wonderful life!
My husband, my love - I have tortured and tried this man - and "for better or for worse" he still loves me. Last Friday he sent me flowers...NO REASON, just an I love you! He puts up with me day in and day out, and still kisses me goodnight.

Life IS like a box of chocolates! You never know what your gonna get. We have to figure out our life, learn form it, and use it for our future. Living each day if it were our last. Making peace with others, and loving whole heartily.
This week has been one of those learning experiences that I hope to grow from, and live today a little better.
To those of you reading - thank you. Thank you for blog-stalking me!:) Don't be afraid to leave a comment. Thank you for being interested and reading to the end. I hope that you are reading this because somewhere in our life, we became friends. Enjoy your day, love longer, laugh harder, and enjoy life!

The WONDERFUL Men in my life

HAPPY BIRTHDAY babe,

I LOVE YOU!

Wishing a Happy Birthday to Wade and Jeremy too.

To OUR PERSONAL SUPERMAN, DAD, and Husband

the WONDERFUL FATHERS of this world,

especially mine...

and Jayson's Dad

We love you ,

HaPPy FaTheR's DaY!

she'll never know

I took this pics Monday morning before Jos left for trek. She made me promise I wouldn't put them on facebook, but my Blog doesn't count! Jos totally fell in love with her Ma and Pa, The Dymocks. They are wonderful people, and I was excited she got to spend her trek with them.

They stayed in the same clothes the entire time, so needless to say, she was a little stinky when she got home.

She got home about 9 last night from trek, exhausted and high on life. They only got rained on Tuesday night and Wednesday. During lunch Wednesday the "pony express" delivered letters to the trekkers. These of course were previously written by parents. It took me about two weeks to write this letter to Jos. I wanted her to know how much I loved her, and how important the choices we make affect our lives. (I still have the letter my dad wrote me when I was 16). So, about 10 this morning I get a text from Jos that reads...

"hey I love you. going on the trek made me realize how much u do for me. the entire time i couldn't wait to tell u what we did and i found myself counting down till i could see my family. i got homesick and it drove me crazy. im so glad im home. thank u so much i love you and have a super fabulous day at work!
I know, wipe the tears! She is such a sweet girl, and I love her so much!